Define Hero

2010-03-21T23:07:00.006+08:00

Read a few old posts. Damn, I'm like wtf I sound like some childish despo freako.
Although the fact that you have a huge impact in my life never changed, I'm so glad the torture's over.
Good luck to the guy beside you,

I'm moving on: cusitsyouandme.tumblr.com
Goodbye, it's been a nice 5 years (:

Cus I'm halfway gone and I'm on my way
-Lifehouse

2010-03-02T21:36:00.008+08:00

Mum: 品文啊！）：电脑又没有internet了。帮我修修好吗？
Me:哦~来了。 -.-
有时候wireless 不能用的时候就用wire的咯。
Mum: 那么这个要插那里？O.o
Me: 要从这里拿出来，然后放在这，然后...
（五分钟后。。。)
Me: 就这样！^^ 明白了吗？现在你从头做一次给我看。
（老妈走上前想着办法把mouse的USBc插头插入inet plug...)
Me: （晕~）

Anyway, i read somewhere that...
有一种爱，叫做祝福。
有一种勇敢，叫做放弃。
有一种解脱，叫做原谅，不只要原谅对方，也要原谅自己。

I just thought that I seriously have learned alot the past year.
I can't believe I actually could forgive someone like you.
Seeing you still oblivious of what you really want in your life, i pity you.
You don't know what love really is, you take people's feelings for granted.
I duno when you'll even begin to perceive this, but I still do hope you're happy regardless of what happens. It was pretty coincidental to see you there. Helping a certain somebody with his hairdo. That very moment I saw you smiling, it just made me wonder if you are really happy, or you are just fabricating the fact that you are.
But what the heck, time will tell. I just know that you'll be showing me your answers really soon.

2010-02-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

great. i did super badly today :\
i totally suck! tho i still think they are really awesome :D
perhaps i'm just not good enough.
damn, i feel really dizzy now i better go catch some Zs.
shouldn't have stayed up late ystd -.-

2010-01-19T21:12:00.003+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/cherieberrie

This is for you, Cherie.
hope you're happy with that new guy of yours.

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡
让人家不安
才会结果都
我没有什么阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱
何况那算什么伤
反正爱情不就都这样
我没有说谎我何必说谎
你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎
请别以为你有多难忘
消失真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口
闻的到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象
我没有说谎我何必说谎
你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎
是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎我何必说谎
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样
别说我说谎
人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿
我没有说谎是爱情说谎
它带你来骗我说可我没有可能有希望
我没有说谎
祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你全遗忘

A little too lazy to type in chinese now..
Finally it's really over. I have never lied, believe it or not. I have no idea what you were referring to when you said I was being cunning/iniquitous.
And thanks for letting me scold you, it;'s like after so long, all my anger just vanished. It's like I've been waiting for this day. Thanks for taking it in. (:

We'll see what really happens to each of us, I duno if you even read my very last text, but, enjoy your happiness while it lasts.. Both of us won't be leading a good life. We've done too much to deserve none. For me, it's bad enough of me to be in between you and Daniel, but I really am willing to take whatever karma has in stall for me.

For you, I duno how many guys have you been doing this with, and I really hope you'd stop. This isn't something to joke with, you'll regret it in the future. Think about the guys that you are doing this too

2010-01-06T23:34:00.004+08:00

可恶的小偷!!!!!!!! _|_

2010-01-05T22:00:00.005+08:00

今天倒是满刺激的
把office里的laminating machine弄坏了。 :X
一时好玩，把白纸放了进去
结果就没出来了... -,-
费了好大的功夫，把机器完全的拆开来才把那张纸取出。
还好Ma'am当时不在
不然可死得超难看的！

同事在office里播了这首歌
其实我会这么恨你，
应该是因为我很在乎你吧
看了许多照片，也认为是时候了
要快乐哦 ((:

2010-01-03T20:11:00.009+08:00

给我这一生中影响力最大的人
你这样的玩弄男孩子在你手掌之中，小心最后被火烧到...
不过我也并不怪你。毕竟你可能受了家庭的熏陶,再说,你也可能无意间成了你老爸的"影子"。
可能我也应该学着怎么原谅你。想着2009年时,每次一想到你就会非常非常地愤怒。做任何事都没有心情了。想说2010年的确应该重新开始了。我真的真的应该可怜你的。因为你可能永远也不会明白什么是真正的幸福,也一直都没有任何知心好友。也许我才会想,新的一年开始,试着原谅你,作作你的好朋友。 (: 早点回复我的sms吧。

好啦! 觉得blog实在是好久没有登入了。
这一年来发生了好多事。
多数是不愉快的
但是学了好多事情。
可能也成长了不少。
2010年,不能再浪费时间了
下了不少困难的resolutions哦! :X
其实还蛮想换个blog url 的。但想想了，还是不舍得以前那个超级幼稚的自己。哈哈！
看了以前的entries还蛮害羞的。都净blog些有的没的。蠢死了。 :\

Btw, 今天上的课满好玩的!
也挺喜欢我的同学。
脸皮稍微厚了些呢!
"DO~~~~!!!"地唱着,不小心破了音...
还走得满严重的...
但我好像毫不在乎。哈哈
同学也没笑我, Tommy老师也很细心喔!（（：

特别兴奋呢！好想快点去kbox！:D

2009-10-12T20:53:00.008+08:00

You were never a waste of time, probably just a harsh realization that I could have done so much better.
There's so many things I wish for, but most of all, I wish you were here.
It’s strange because before I started seeing you, I couldn’t even recall the last time that I cried. Now, tears just come easily.
But come to think of it, it's you that makes my sorrows worthwhile.
Throughout these harsh weeks at work, my thoughts of you are sometimes the only things that keeps me going.
If only you'll just talk to me again. Like how we used to do so every night.

2009-10-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

I so much want to hear you say that there isn't anyone you'll wanna be with,
and that you'll rather be alone than without me.

2009-10-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

I tried so hard. Probably too hard... You know that, right?
I tried harder than you could ever imagine just to get your attention and apparently I overdid it.
I know you probably dislike me now, and I know I'm in the wrong. Is it too late for me to amend any of it?
Like what my friends said, perhaps I'm immature, and although it's good that I did show concern, it backfired. And now they hope that I could move on.
But trust me, there are some feelings that won't ever go away. And maybe that made me crazy, but I guess we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who will never let go. Someone who wants to cherish you forever. Someone who never wants to lose sight of you.
Now here I am, trying my best to move on, grow up, and just to forget everything. Every piece of you, the way you smell, the feel of your skin. I can still feel it like it was just moments ago.
And I think I always will.

2009-10-08T18:15:00.002+08:00

I don't care about what people tell me.
I just want to scream to the entire office that I’m still in love with you.

2009-10-03T13:20:00.003+08:00

I want to be hard for you to forget. I want to have that kind of impact on you where you know you’ll never find anyone who can take my place, and I want that because that’s what you are to me. I want it to hurt like hell when you see me. I want you to feel what you put me through.

2009-10-03T06:50:00.004+08:00

Just a curious question,
If i died tonight..
How many people would know?
How many people would moan and wish they had me back?
How many people would regret being assholes?
How many people would wish they loved me more?
Would you wish that you've loved me less?

2009-10-02T04:27:00.006+08:00

Do you know the most surprising thing about heartaches?
It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should.
When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I've lost my feelings for you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.

2009-10-01T20:27:00.004+08:00

This feeling has never stopped.
I’ve always had a thing for you.
It fades in and out but never goes away.
I’ve always thought it would all fall into place at the right time.
I don’t understand you. Yet, being with you just makes sense to me.

Happy B'day

2009-09-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

I miss how it was natural to hold your hand. How we could feel each other smiling between kisses. How even when I asked for space, you knew enough to never leave. Now that you’re gone, I seem to have more space than I know what to do with. Guess it’s safe to say I miss you.

2009-09-29T18:39:00.002+08:00

I used to say that staring into your eyes felt like home, but you were like no home I had ever known. You were soft and lovely, and you always kept me warm. I miss having that someone to wrap my arms around who'd whisper sweet melodies in my ear.

2009-09-27T03:27:00.003+08:00

I think the hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us knows what’s going on. Neither of us know what the other is thinking. And we are both trying to make decisions on information we don’t know

2009-09-26T01:33:00.002+08:00

I just want to get inside your head, so I can see how you feel about me. It’s all I wonder about lately. All I want to know is what you see.

2008-12-01T15:00:00.001+08:00

Point Break Indo

Feature Film

Production company: RGM Entertainment and Essential Entertainment

Producer: Neil Kaplan and Kris Taylor

Director: Jan De Bont

Shoot Dates: Jan – Mar 2009 (Bali, Indonesia ) Mar 2009 ( Singapore )

Please submit to ling@fly.com. sg

Auditions at FLY:

Monday, 1st December

Wednesday 3rd December

Thursday 4th December

Storyline:

Expert surfer and daredevil BILLY DALTON is recruited to help track and capture a group of infamous sea raiders. The raiders are known for wearing masks of prominent members of the Bush administration while boarding container ships off the coast of Indonesia and stealing money and medicine from the captain’s safe.

See also – Point Break 1991 (Keanu Reeves, Patrick Swayze)

Characters:

AGUNG – An Aggressive menacing and threatening young Indonesian man, he wears a nose-ring and hates foreign visitors. At a local bar, he instigates a fight with Billy and Teela. Agung and his band of thugs carry machetes and guns, and they aim to emulate Dali and Teela’s sea pirating, but without the social conscience. They demand that Teela had over her stash og antibiotics and hold a knife to her throat. It turns out Agung may be in cahoots with McCoy, but that doesn’t stop him from shooting McCoy when it serves his purposes…. LEAD (15)

BUFFALO – A “HAwaiia Da Hui-type” he is part of Dali’s clan of surfer thieves. During heists, he wears a mask of Colin Powell’s face. Buffalo and Dali laugh about Billy’s attempts to surf the waves of Ombak, and Buffalo’s not sure they should trust Billy, but the also help him recover from his injuries. During a fracus with Agung, Buffalo swings his opponent around like an Olympic hammer thrower… SUPPORTING (24)

TAY – in his 20s ultra fit he’s a Japanese/Korean man and he’s part of Dali’s clan of surfer thieves. During heists, Tay wears a Donald Rumsfeld mask to hide his identity. When Billy is injured, Tay fixes him back up, using a combination of lime juice and super glue. He is amused by Billy’s reactions…. SUPPORTING (24)

KADEK – This tough Indonesian guy is Agung’s lieutenant and sidekick who spies on Billy and Teela. He is pleased when he locates the money that Teela and Dali have stolen… SUPPORTING (20)

GIBSON LEE – In his early 50s, Asian-American, he is difficult to read and keeps his feelings hidden. He’s an ex-military man who used to track down PTSD soldiers and turn them in. Now he runs the Clear-Water Maritime Solutsion private security company out of Singpore. He offers Billy money and honourable discharge papers in exchange for Billy’s help… 1 speech &11 lines, 2 scenes (20)

BOARD-SHAPER – this board-shaper at a Kuta board store is a bit nervous and a lot skeptical when Billy orders a tow-in board. He doesn’t want to help Billy and risk the local’s wrath… 1 speech & 9 lines 2 scenes (36)

CAPTAIN – The Captain of the Johannes Geise Vessel, he calls “mayday!” when the Bush Gang of criminals boards his ship. He is forced by Dali to open his safe… 3 lines, 3 scenes (83)

RADAR MAN – this Asian or Malaysian crew member on a container ship tries to contact an old power boat that’s having engine trouble, and freaks out when he sees, over the security monitor, a man in a Cheney mask board the ship and wave a gun… 5 lines 2 scenes

PILOT – the pilot of Gibson Lee’s Zodiac boat, he is resigned to the fact that they’re going to be stuck in the water for a while… 2 lines 1 scene (105)

Lim Hui Ling

Senior Manager, Artiste Management

Casting Director / New Talent Development

Fly Entertainment Pte Ltd
133 Neil Road S 088862
Tel: +65 62243188
Fax: +65 62242388
Hp: +65 97378434
Website : www.fly.com. sg
GST/Co. Regn No: 2000-03990-M

"if you can dream the invisible, you can do the impossible."

2008-11-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

Dear All,

I'm currently looking for a female chinese talent who look between
age 20-30 to act as a teacher for an educational video.

Requirements:
1. Must be able to speak fluent mandarin
2. Good(demure) looking, preferably slim
3. Tall, at least 170cm

We are targeting to film during 2nd or 3rd week of december.

Those interested, please send a clear picture of your recent photo
(preferably less than 500kb), a short write up of yourself, indicate
your height and send to gwenang@yahoo. com.

and....

Hi people,

I'm casting for a corporate video and am looking for talents to fill
the following roles:

1. Chinese/pan- asian male in his late 20s to early 30s to play a
deadbeat office worker.

2. Chinese/pan- asian male in his late 20s to early 30s to play
successful business person.

Please send pictures to julius@movingbitson line.com .

Only short-listed candidates will be notified.

Please take note: Freelance talents preferred :)

Thanks for reading!

2008-11-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

I am looking for 2 boys for filming a kids drama for mediacorp channel
8 as classmates of the main casts, with mandarin dialogue. There will
be only 2 days of filming.

Interested parties please contact me at 98069944 / 96652877, or email
your CV to my email, hanged7alive@ hotmail.com.

Regards,
Chia Jiaxing
Assistant Producer
50 Jalan Limbok
Singapore 548730
Contact no: 96652877 / 98069944

2008-10-28T22:59:00.004+08:00

today almost bang other ppl's car. -.-
i was too focused on looking right and i neglected the left. my dad almost died of a heartattack

haha i juz tot tis is funny
our dp looks almost the same xD

well anyway, got my driving license today! yaaay. so cool! i look like a dork in the pic!!!
and guess wad, im enlisting jan 28! im so glad at least its much earlier than what i predicted. if not im definitely wasting my time waiting for enlistment (:

2008-10-23T10:31:00.002+08:00

HEY all!
i know most of u guys thought that i enlisted but the thing is i havent

becuz of my ankle injury the MO decided to postpone my enlistment becuz he doesn't think i could handle the trainings in my current state.
and really, i tot its a waste of time and my study plans after ns is kind of ruined. =\
but at least its better than getting despised by bunkmates becuz im always absent for trainings or worse, recourse my Bmt becuz i didnt fulfill the criterias. so maybe this is for the best.
and currently im really sorting things out, be it emotionally, my part time work, music stuff and so on.

so yea, luckily got friends that really cheered me up. u know who u guys are. loool. and actually i didnt let too many ppl know about it either. cuz i didnt know wad to say. but at least posting up here u guys would read about it and all.

soooo~ the next enlistment intake is between dec - may and please please lemme be the january batch! becuz the dec batch shld all probably recieved their letters by now.

im down with a bad cold now. can feel mucous dripping down my nasal. tmr my throat sure damn jialat. and beside me is a pile of tissue papers. i wonder how do ancient caveman survive if they catch a cold. no tissue papers!

2008-10-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

im going in guys! bye :)
miss me~

2008-10-06T23:29:00.003+08:00

havnt blogged for a really long time. and after thursday it'd be even more deserted xD
would be enlisting tis thurs! didnt feel bad about it actually. instead im kind of looking forward to how crappy my life would get once i get in. haha!

came back ystd night after an entire 4 day 3 night chalet with my best buds :)
it was fun fun fun. and some memorable occasions. not much photos taken tho. lol

most importantly, my ankle doesnt seem to be improving. went to see 3 different doctors today. lol! it doesnt hurt when i walk. but gets worse once i walk a long distance or run. im just worried that i'd need to re-do the entire Bmt if i get excessive MCs due to my ankle problem T^T

oh yay. and the highlight of the day. i passed my driving~~~ *beams* and its my first attempt!
and to think my parking was totally screwed up. during the warm up session, i asked the instructor to guide me. he was in shock when i couldnt park the vehicle properly for a few attempts. lol! and the test was just less than 30mins away.

during the test, everything was pretty smooth. except in the circuit itself. i eff-ed up the verticle parking and the slope portion. banged the pole while i tried to park. lol.
and i stalled the car twice on the slope. its a miracle i can even still pass. the tester was going beserkly "i cant believe you still dare to come take the test" and "what has the driving school been teaching u" and stuff like that. hahah. and im glad i didnt give up -.- 18 demerit points in total. lucky me

2008-09-22T07:04:00.002+08:00

i havent woken up tis early in a long time. peered out the window and all i see are st hilda students.
having piano lessons (which i didnt practice again -.-) and probably my part time job later on
i just realize that its about 2 weeks that we'd be having our chalet and then after that would be my ns! this totally sucks. haha!

ystd was supposed to be ken's cfg performance but i completely overslept. at least i still made it there in time xD

and kboxing was damn fun with k9(?) except for 'that' incident. so we now hav one new pro viola player in the clique now. hahah. shld hang out more and discuss more about digging sh!tholes during field camps. =X
i wan more cabonaras!

2008-09-16T16:58:00.001+08:00

Seeking Caucasian Male Talents for Mediacorp Drama:
If you are keen, do email MurniMastan@ mediacorp. com.sg or call 6350 3669 or
9837 4703.Thank you!

Wednesday 17 September 0700h-1230h
1x European/Caucasian man aged 20s, Role: Waiter
5x European/Caucasian men aged 30s-40s, Role: People in restaurant
*NOTE: no skinheads/bald guys, no spectacles, no
coloured/highlighte d hair
**Best if they can wear their own white long-sleeve collared shirt,
long pants, matching jacket, and black leather shoes

Thursday 18 September 0700h-1500h
1x European/Caucasian man aged 20s, Role: Waiter
5x European/Caucasian men aged 30s-40s, Role: Cricket players &
people in restaurant
*NOTE: no skinheads/bald guys, no spectacles, no
coloured/highlighte d hair
**Best if they can wear their own white long-sleeve collared shirt,
long pants, matching jacket, and black leather shoes

Monday 22 September 0700h-1800h

7x European/Caucasian men aged 30s-40s, Role: Spectators
*NOTE: no skinheads/bald guys, no spectacles, no
coloured/highlighte d hair
**Best if they can wear their own white long-sleeve collared shirt,
long pants, matching jacket, and black leather shoes

2008-09-12T02:48:00.002+08:00

just finished my part time job today and its damn tiring. leg's getting all 'sour' =\

and ya! i guess i just missed my chance to perform at a cfg. really wanted to play something for the audience, sing, or wadever. but i guess i just dun hav the balls. couldnt do it alone, and none of my friends could make it =(

the scene at the ball. just gotten nostalgic and watched the dvd of what a girl wants. i know its a chick flick but i really love em. haha! and his one of the main reason i get so enthusiastic about singing xD

2008-09-08T00:47:00.008+08:00

guys check this out
this is Cap-A City's first collection of mesh caps and i think they have really limited stocks

just go to:
http://paperjoyride.livejournal.com/
they hav the pics for their collection of caps!

anyway.. issit just me or u guys dont really like him too? lol

2008-09-04T03:52:00.004+08:00

damn i couldnt slp!
nth special happening lately.. -.- and its about a month left before im sent for imprisonment in tekong. so before letting them shave my head i decided to go try out some new hairstyle! and guessy waaad. i look like a dork! :D no photos at the moment. wanna let it grow longer -_-

when the guy was cutting my hair inside me i was like "WTF! why am i doing tis!" and then i see most of my hair coming down. so u guys can easily guess that my hair is short now xD

and hey! been browsing for movies lately. saw tonnes of new upcoming movies that i'd like to catch. one would be dragonball~ i wanna see how retarded it can actually get. but i'd be in the army then ):
http://www.dragonballmovieblog.net/

next is thissss~!

trailer for naruto's shippuden 2nd movie. i really like how the background song blends with the trailer. u can get the song from me! :D
still got other movies like twilight, city of ember, and others. woo~

and yup, i saw this video at this site
http://www.chooseveg.com/animal-cruelty.asp
showing how cruel the farm slaughter cattles, pigs, chickens and etc. i watched the entire thing i really could feel how painful the entire process really is. its not the the faint-hearted

2008-08-27T02:35:00.004+08:00

thursday would be my MRI scanning for my right ankle. im not worried whether or not its a very serious problem on my right ankle. im more worried that the scan would be a waste of both time n money$$$!! its about $400 and the doc recommended me to get it scanned. at least it would prove whether the soft bone in my ankle had been worn off. if it does it'd definitely worsen during my ns.

so, if the scan came out to be that the pain isnt from the soft bone section. bloooody hell i'd bang my head on the wall. can use the cash to buy one itouch you know?!?!

haha. this is yoga imitating peter. friggin funny can. and i duno why i cant post youtube anymore on my friendster! ): so i guess i'll just do it here then.

and if your wondering where is yoga imitating above, its from this song. check out his hand during the chorus. his still not observant enough la, peter held the mic with his left hand not right. haha! i win!

this is about who is the one with the best tears. haha! and i like the last part with peter singing firelight

tis one's hilarious. haha. check out 3:12 onwards, its damn funny la xD

2008-08-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

Hurry! this looks pretty cool :)

Casting for Supoorting Roles for New Drama series on channel 5:
Production will start in Sept.
Auditions are now open.

The roles:
1. TV Reporter - female, 20s to mid 20s. Fluent in English. With or
without TV experience.
2. Host - male, 30s to 40s. Fluent in English. Emceeing experience
preferred.
3. Raymond Khoo, chinese male 40s to 50s. Fluent in English. TV
experience preferred. Able to project both good and villian roles.
4. Mr Wong, chinese male 40s to 50s. Fluent in English. TV
experience preferred.
Acting as a conman.
5. Gina, chinese female in her 20s. Pretty and sexy. Acting as a KTV
waitress. Able to emote well. Fluent in English. TV experience
preferred.
6. Ben, chinese male in his 20s. Handsome, a typical playboy. Fluent
in English. Tv experience preferred.

Interested parties, please send profiles to:
adrianwong@mediacorp.com.sg

2008-08-23T12:39:00.002+08:00

life seems boring after the competition -.-
nth to do almost the entire day except hitting a few keys on the piano

Casting for male voice-acting talent wanted for animated character:

Hi all, Looking for the above-mentioned for a 2 min educational
programme. Requirements Age: between 16 to 30 Language: English
Seeking someone who can give a youthful and dramatic delivery. Those
with clean accents and has good enunciation preferred. This will be a
fully paid assignment. Interested parties please send an email to
joazman@ymail. com Cheers

2008-08-17T02:14:00.003+08:00

YAAAAY!

again, singapore soka association's golden lion troupe achieved the gold medal for the group fist event for the national wushu competition! :D its the 2nd consecutive time! damn im so happy i can finally retire peacefully. im like damn proud of ken. he got a bronze medal today for the double weapons catergory too.

haha. finally, tmr would be the last day of the competition. 3 individual events and 1 group sword event. after that would be celebrationssss~!

photos to be uploaded soon! :))

2008-08-15T02:56:00.002+08:00

yay! we got ourselves our first bronze medal for 2008's wushu competition =D not forgetting another merit for getting 5th position for the sparring segment.

this sat's gonna be my last competition =\
6.30pm at toa payoh stadium T^T im kind of nervous already

2008-08-11T12:45:00.001+08:00

Kid's Central's casting for interviewers:
I am URGENTLY looking for:-

Reporters
- Male (any race) & Female (Chinese only)
- 15 – 24 years of age
- Individuals who can approach anyone & everyone to interview
- Optimistic & vibrant
- Good spoken English
- Ability to Ad-lib/ improvise on script

If you fit the above bill, email me your port-folio/ head shots etc to
bobby@rightangle. com.sg then call me up to set an appointment @ 6325 4201

Cheers,
Bobby Ganesan
T: 6325 4201
E: bobby@rightangle. com.sg

oh ya. and i notice that some ppl told me that i typed the emails wrongly. usually there would be unneccesary spaces inbetween their emails. actually i was just lazy to change it the moment i received the info. so u guys just be cautious to delete the spaces inbetween if u wanna send them ur CVs. :D

2008-08-08T04:59:00.002+08:00

sore throat arent really recovering =\
now im feeling flu too, which means later i wake up the throat sure more pain cuz the mucus flows backwards from my nose! haha. as long as it doesnt lead to fever can le.

and yup, just now was damn funny. was raining friggin heavily and after so many years i actually felt like a kid again. kicking and splashing water at one another on our way out after wushu. hahah it was very fun la.

so ya.. 2 years sure passed by so quickly. i can still rmbr back then how we went off to celebrate winning a medals for the wushu competition. and then while we were eating other soka members that just performed for ndp were around tat area too. so we kind of congradulated one another. that was 2 years ago!! and now we're gonna make sure we get that champion again :))

if 2years can fly by so quickly. i wan my ns to end like now -.- hahah

2008-08-06T00:10:00.001+08:00

this looks pretty neat:
We are producing a National Geographic documentary and we urgently
require an actor to play a Chinese merchant.

It is a non-speaking role, but one of the main ones.

Shoots will be overseas, fully-paid, to Indonesia and China. Shoot is
late-August till early September.

Requirements:

Male
40-60 years old (or looks like it)
Acting Experience
Able to travel
Mainland Chinese-looking

Cheers,
Loh Yen-Lyng
Production Assistant
IFA Films
100 Beach Road
#12-06 Shaw Tower
Singapore 189702

Main: +65 6224 6366
DID: +65 6341 5986
Fax: +65 6224 6466
Mobile: +65 8223 1977
Skype: yenlyng
Web: www.infocusasia. com <http://www.infocusa sia.com>

2008-08-05T13:45:00.003+08:00

sry peeps. aint much casting news lately for me to post here...
but heres something to cute to watch

my ankles arent recovering =\ wonder if its gonna get worse when i go ns.
competition is in a week's time -.- time sure flies.
quarreled with a good friend. not as in really got quarrel la but at least i know we aint talking. hahah. and too shy to go apologize oso

anyway, it is necessary for all manual car learners to attend 2 auto car lessons. and ystd was my first. after going there i was like 'what the eff!!!'
haha. its really damn friggin easier than manual. waaaaay easier

2008-08-01T03:42:00.003+08:00

goodness gracious me

watch this. just scroll it to 6:31 and listen to evan yo's version of shuang jie gun by jay chou.
DAMNNNN NICE!!! nvr listen u sure regret! hahah

2008-07-31T17:16:00.001+08:00

OMG!! guys. somewhat of a big project below!! :) go for it!! gogo!
but wouldnt be joining u guys. having little time at hand now oso x(

Dream Forest Productions is on the lookout for some acting talents
(with character breakdowns and ages below) for an upcoming English
drama set in 1960s Singapore.

Lee Soon Lee (Lead character, male, 14 years old, Chinese)
- Rebellious, impetuous, cocky, confident
- buddies with Charlie and Peter
- medium to well-built
- English-speaking

Charlie Leong (lead cast, male, 11 years old, Chinese)
- Cherubic, jolly, cute
- buddies with Soon Lee and Peter
- Plump
- English-speaking

Peter Livingston (lead cast, male, 14 years old, English Caucasian)
- Scholarly, gentle, thoughtful
- buddies with Soon Lee and Charlie
- medium to well-built, bespectacled
- English-speaking

Tony Lee (main supporting cast, male, 20 years old, Chinese)
- hot headed, proud, filial, gangster with a heart of gold
- Soon Lee's brother
- well-built (amateur boxer)
- English-speaking

Logan Leong (main supporting cast, male, 17 years old, Chinese)
- spoilt, sociopath in the making, loves to bully
- Charlie's cousin
- medium to well-built
- English speaking

Li Yen (supporting cast, female, 14 years old, Chinese)
- sweet, lovely, gentle, intelligent, polite
- Soon Lee's love interest
- slim built, fair
- English speaking

Sam the tomboy (supporting cast, female, 14 years old, Chinese)
- Malaysian, tomboy but pretty, tough, able to fight
- falls in love with Peter and then Soon Lee as well
- slim built
- English speaking

Annie Tan (supporting cast, female, 20 years old, Chinese)
- beautiful, kind, naive, piano teacher
- Tony's love interest
- slim built
- English speaking

Susie Woon, (supporting cast, female, 22 years old, Chinese)
- prostitute with a painful past, takes drugs, vivacious and lively
when on drugs
- falls in love with Tony
- slim built
- English speaking

Sherry Tan, (supporting cast, female, 26 years old, Chinese)
- mistress of a towkay, sharp tongue, cunning to men, kind to old
people and children
- slim built
- English speaking

Mabel Lee (main supporting cast, female, 37 years old, Chinese)
- hardworking, loves her sons unconditionally, compassionate, firm,
stubborn
- Soon Lee and Tony's mother
- medium built
- English speaking

Thomas Livingston (main supporting cast, male, late 30's, English
Caucasian)
- police officer, upright, honest, loves fishing, separated from his wife
- Peter's father
- medium to well-built
- English speaking

Grandma (main supporting cast, female, 50 years old, Chinese)
- Rich lady, pampers her grandchild
- Charlie and Logan's grandmother
- medium built, can be plump
- English speaking

Muthu (supporting cast, male, 35 years old, Indian)
- Stout, stocky, tough boxing coach, colourful love life
- Tony's boxing coach
- medium to well-built
- English speaking

Simon Teo (supporting cast, male, 28 years old, Chinese)
- Handsome, distinguished, tall, exudes quiet charm, philanthropist &
caring doctor with dark, abusive streak
- Annie's fiancee
- medium to well-built
- English speaking

Hot kampung woman (supporting cast, female, 18 years old, Chinese)
- Sizzling hot, attractive to boys, mysterious
- slim built
- English speaking

Malay man (supporting cast, male, middle-aged, Malay)
- speaks with experience, mysterious
- medium built
- Malay speaking

Towkay (supporting cast, male, middle-aged, Chinese)
- stocky, wealthy
- Sherry is his mistress
- medium built
- English speaking

Kindly send me your CVs and photos at priscilla.t@ dreamforest. com or
6837 2345 should you or anyone you know fits the bill.

Thanks.

Sincerely,
Priscilla Tang
Casting Director

DREAM FOREST PRODUCTIONS
56 Prinsep St, #02-01
Prinsep Place
Singapore 188685
Tel: (65) 6837 2345
Fax: (65) 6837 0341
Mobile: (65) 9879 1636
Website: www.dreamforest. com

2008-07-31T00:45:00.001+08:00

lol! any1 here is a director? :)

MediaCorp is producing an 80 episode drama series in September and we
are looking for an experienced casting director.
He or she must have at least 1 year experience in casting for TV
dramas. Speaks fluent English is a must. Able to commit from Sept to
May 2009.

Interested applicants please send CVs to the following address:
adrianwong@mediacor p.com.sg

so ya.. yawnnn. im still desparately trying to switch back my biology clock. =\
had fun with jasmine today! but i still so crave for singing!! any1 else wanna go kbox with me? xD

2008-07-30T01:19:00.005+08:00

well, here's a two castings recently:
1)
Title: Casting YOUNG GIRL for student TVC (URGENT!!)

Description: I am second year student in Temasek Polytechnic and I am
currently working on remaking a movie scene (1408).
The shoot will be a one day shoot on the 2nd of August. Transportation
fees and meals will be covered.

Roles: 1) Young girl with long black hair- any race, age 5-12, have to
look young.

Performance/ Shoot Start: 02/08/2008
Performance/ Shoot End: 02/08/2008
Confirm by: ASAP
Audition Address: Kovan (transportation will be covered)
Production Company: Temasek Polytechnic
Contact Person: Stephanie Chua
Contact Phone: 96782384
Email to: chocola89@hotmail. com

2)
Kids Central Drama
Seeking for role of

1. muscle men working out in gym.
Shoot date: 10 Aug Sunday (12h)

* Audition date for muscle men: 4 Aug Monday
Time: 530pm onwards
Location: Big Communications Pte Ltd

2. an indian couple in their 20s as Viknesh and Sasha.
Shoot date: 15 Aug Friday (12h) and 18 Aug Mon - half day (time TBC)

* Audition date for Viknesh and Sasha: 8 Aug Friday
Time: 530pm onwards
Location: Big Communications Pte Ltd

These are paid jobs. Interested, please send me an email with your pic and CV.

Cheers,
Irene Kung

Producer
BIG Communications Pte Ltd
315 Outram road #04-09
Tan Boon Liat Building
Singapore 169074
Website: www.bigcom.com. sg
www.raindrop. tv

haha, well thats all.
so ya i had nth to do so i did a simple test below

You Are a Brownie

Decadent and intense, you aren't for the weakhearted.

Those who can deal with your strong flavor find out how sweet you really are.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

yay im brownie yum sudden craving for it xD

2008-07-29T04:38:00.003+08:00

was mass watching tonnes of taiwan idol singers on youtube.. and then i browsed this one here

during the judges' comments i really really love what shin said (3:33).
i thought its really true la, dun care whether if it goes wrong or not. even a professional like him can go wrong at times so confidence is what makes up for it. scarly ppl tot that going off-tune is a unique trait of yours which u did on purpose. haha
sing like nobody's watching

anyway, friends who are interested in acting, dancing, filming or wadever arts opportunities, i'd be posting them here so do check out my blog =))

2008-07-26T05:04:00.005+08:00

YAAAY
after hours of struggling, my lappy is finally fixed and rid of all irritating spywares and viruses =DD
wahahhaha
but in return i kind of lost all my music, photos and softwares T^T

anyway, something to share with all of you.
ever wondered why the earth and the moon, which both are born at about the same time 4.6 billion years ago look so different from one another?
back then, there were severe meteorite storms that lashed and battered both the earth and the moon with tremendous force resulting in gigantic craters.

as u all know that both the moon and the earth were a burning pool of magma back in the beginning. but just within the period 3.9 to 3.2 billion years ago, the moon gradually cool and it eventually ceased to be active and all the craters hardened into a solid crust. resulting to the scars to remain intact to this day. thats why sometimes during clear nights we can see the moon's scarred surfaces!

but for the earth, the volcanic activity and magna flow obliterated the craters so completely tat it could no longer be seen. and then life emerged and it became a blue blue planet and blah blah blah u guys know the rest.

to the main point... i think every single of us could take the above example and apply it to ourselves. all of us had tragic experiences that actually scarred us in the course of our lives. at such times i think we shldn't feel discouraged. by losing over to pessimism, we'll end up just like the moon craters. =\
but instead, hav courage and win over pain and sorrows. we can actually wipe away the unpleasent scars, move forward and heal.

probably im reading too much into it xD well i juz hope certain friends of mine would cheer up and keep moving forward! haha. i just so love Meet The Robinsons

2008-07-20T02:49:00.002+08:00

you guys HAVE to watch this performance. just scroll in front to 1:27 to skip the front interview part. i think this piece totally rocks.
and i cant find the sheets for this piece anywhere on the net =(( any kind souls happen to HAVE it wanna like send it to me? xD
its called Flying by Steve Barakatt. if u really like it i hav it in mp3, just ask from me! haha

2008-07-18T03:24:00.003+08:00

my arm is darker than my shoulders -.-
i seriously wanna go sun-tanning!
some pics me n my family taken a few months back
ok.. the bhb vainpot is going to sleep now. yawn

2008-07-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

damn. i completely forgot about my piano lesson this morning -_-
aside from that, i really had fun today (:

2008-07-11T01:31:00.008+08:00

omg i think this song rocks =DD

anywayyy, im so damn looking forward to sat! its like a damn fun day doing preparations for the wushu competition then at night go for night cycling!! =D yeaaay. OH OH, and i passed my driving advance theory test today! i only studied for 20min for it. wahahah. im like so f**king proud of myself. driving test shld be on oct 6 before my enlistment =))
(if i can even pass on my first try that is...)

i cant use facebook for some reason even tho ppl keep telling me its better than friendster. but everytime i try to load stuff i have to wait damn long for facebook to work or sometimes it will lead me to some weird page with alot of html codes. =\ i cant even accept friends on facebook!

oh man i really feel like getting my left ear's cartilage pierceeeed!! and i wanna get lasik oso sia. xD cravingsss

just watched Meet The Robinsons. i tot it was pretty much a retarded show to kill time but i really liked it.
http://tvshack.net/movies/Meet_the_Robinsons__2007_/
heres a link if u guys wanna watch online. damn good quality!
"Keep moving forward" is a quote from the movie i really liked and Walt Disney actually said it and stuff la! this is for a certain friend, dun get too emo okay, tho we occasionally turn and look behind at our past but dun be binded by it. boat reach bridge will auto straight, so just keep moving forward! =))

2008-07-08T01:09:00.004+08:00

its gonna be a hectic week =\
tmr's my bone scanning at SGH. heard its gonna take half a day? ow man. and i damn scared pain de. heard they need to inject something to my ankle and stuff. ooooomg. T^T

hahah. other than that, still hav driving thoery tests and the rest are all wushu trainings =\

and thanks to me being lazy to check my email, i missed out tonnes of casting sessions which were supposed to be last sat and sun. ARGHHHHHHH

oh ya, and piano practical was atrocious. aural = messed up, grading pieces = play wrong, sight-reading = wtf was i playing?, scales = ........
hahah. u can picture it urself. i was nervous, and its plainly cuz i havn't practiced enough. oh man i guess i deserved it.
i'd be more than happy to at least get a pass. but getting merit would be impossible now =(

2008-07-02T02:18:00.001+08:00

yaaaaay. liang lent me his extra mp3 players today during training.
but i was damn sad when i couldnt load too much songs in it. its about 500mb storage.
ARGHHHHH. curse whoever the guy who stole my mp3 player!

2008-06-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

YO! sry i havent been updating for a while. alot had happened lately. been busy with car practicals, piano rehearsals and performances, music practical exams, basketball outings, kbox-ing, gyming, wushu practices, hospital visits and so many more.

speaking of hospital consultations. i went to changi hospital for a consultation on my right ankle at the sports medication centre. and the doc thinks that i might hav cracked my navicular bone or smth. so he sent me to a bone scanning appointment and to see him 2 weeks after the bone scanning at singapore general hospital.

i hope this injury doesnt affect my wushu competition.. BUT affects my NS pes. HAHAH =X ok this sounds bad. but i really hope i can get into SAF band.

and thanks liang, berty n charis to listening to my rants. hahah. it totally sucks big time. i lost my damn mp3 player!!! its been with me a long time and i even just changed the earphones recently =( and im like damn touched when charis said she wanted to get me earphones and liang lending me his extra mp3 player. hahah. thnks! wahah

2008-06-18T03:10:00.001+08:00

ooooh man!!
singing singing is so friggin fun
i wanna go kbox again. hahah

2008-06-12T01:55:00.003+08:00

i just got to know about it.
i barely know you from tpsu, but i regretted not talking to you when i had the chances
u initiated a chat with me that day, and im glad you did. and i really think your an awesome guy like what my friends described.
and now i'm looking at ur friendster. and decided to add u as a friend. but i guess you wont be able to accept me anymore.
rest in peace... clifton

been down with flu and cough and fever the since last thurs! but i guess im much better now. finished all my medicine so no more drowzy days! great, my piano practical is july 14th and im still far from getting even a PASS! -.- i'd better start my intense practices soon.

2008-06-04T16:01:00.000+08:00

fantastic song..!

lately hav been waking up real early -.-
yawwwn now im already feeling damn sleepy

2008-05-30T11:32:00.002+08:00

awww.. i think i hurt my ankle during training ystrday.. x(
and now my muscle aches from all the workouts.
think im starting to get old from wushu. hahah

anyway.. july would be my piano grading and driving FTT, august would be my very last national wushu competition. and oct would be my Ns!

2008-05-28T22:20:00.006+08:00

you guys just got to love YUNA ITO. shes totally awesome!

this was the video when she won in the Yusen Taisho back in 2005. its so emotional and its damn touching when you see ppl achieve things after all their hard work.

and last but not least, this video is A World To Believe In, with celine dion and yuna working tgther! :D
Enjoy!

2008-05-25T16:57:00.003+08:00

PATIENCE!
i need to learn to hav patience
i always tend to rush things to lean towards negativity that resulted to my many failures

anyway i made history. i overslept during graduation ceremony. praise me!
awesome song btw!

i couldnt find the imeem version so i used the youtube one instead =)

2008-05-24T05:54:00.003+08:00

=( i got back my music theory grades. its an 81.
although its a merit but i think i did really badly. i did several past year papers and the worse was like about 84 or 85. and my results were worse than it.

was kind of hoping for a distinction tho. hahah. but its really damn sad! i guess the next grading would be 2 years later after my Ns =(( thats so damn long.

and lately i cant seem to find the inspiration to do things. oh man im stucked!
and why am i still awake at tis time -.-

2008-05-20T23:55:00.008+08:00

i was really pondering real hard on either an acoustic or an electric drums set. and i came to a decision of an electric. and so.. here it is!tadah! it came at about 4pm today while i was playing around with my piano.

i was severing all the boxes and setting things up busily. it took me a total of 4 f**king hours and i started to think that it really wasnt worth it. all the adjusting and unscrewing and estimating and etc. wash and rinse wash and rinse the procedures.
and by 9pm i was so damn friggin happy i got everything set and ready to go!
played and tried things out and i really really really think that...
no1 should ever get an electric!!!! especially cheap cheap ones.
if ur going for 2k+ drums like yamaha i have nth to say. haha. seriously, i really should hav gone for acoustic. guess i'll do so in the future. would soundproof my room and stuff. omg so cool! hahah

but at least i hav drums to play with now! mum wouldnt be complaining about the noise hazards! hahah =D

oh ya. and pro me figured this out today in like 10min =))
but its nt that difficult anyway -.-

its dedicated to a certain gal who love bashing the piano. hahah
Mouthwash intro, by Kate Nash!
heres her song!

2008-05-14T01:36:00.004+08:00

i heard this song a looong time ago but i thought i shld post it. really in the mood for something of this genre xD

hello alll! im back from taiwan! was supposed to be back on sunday but my cousin asked whether if i wanna stay for another day. and it was a right decision la. becuz the past few days i only spent it accompanying my mum and stuff. so i really had fun on the last day shopping by myself, and at night i met up with my coussie and 2 of her best pals where we shopped and dined! x)

the pic with my mum at the wedding dinner
thats my cousin, yinchen! xD sadly i didnt hav the pic with my other cousin.

anyway i didnt take much photos either. the rest are like with the bridesman but i duno him so i doubt there'd be a chance i can get hold of them. haha!

2008-05-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

omffffffffffffffffg!
i thought i'd be leaving on friday for taiwan. and just moments ago when i returned home i was wondering why is mum packing the luggage like siao. and minutes ago after i bathed she told me that its tmr and why isnt my luggage packed. zZzZZz.

so thats it. would be missing my laptop and the internet until sunday. x( bon voyage to me

i wont be able to make it for tmr's wushu training! so srry guys =((
blame my mum!!! haha

2008-05-03T02:30:00.003+08:00

this song rocks! =) i so love lifehouse. jason wade really is awesome! i wonder where all of his inspirations to write come from

received my Ns enlistment letter - oct 9. kinda stinks.. im pes A and theres like no escape! hahah. even my piano teacher thinks that there'd be barely enough time for me to even get to practice or continue learning music. and hor..! damn exciting can!!! my piano teacher told me today that he'd hav to shift me to a thursday lesson schedule cuz he wont be free on mondays anymore. reason? becuz he and his band is in SUPERBAND! hahah. i gotta keep a look out for him! =))

anyway, i'd still be going to taiwan for my cousin's wedding dinner thingy.. shld be leaving on may 9th and back on the sunday! would be visiting the performance art school there too..! been pondering if i wanna study there after my ns

piano practical would be in july! its less than 2 month and i have even yet to finish up the 3 exam pieces. and coming august would be the national wushu competition. i sure hope things go well for me =P

have been coughing non stop for about a month now and i still hav yet to recover!

2008-04-27T03:00:00.001+08:00

prog outing today! hav never been to mindcafe tho =P it was kind of a mindless board games we played, but we were all crappy enough to make it fun

anyway, i have nvr in my life seen a girl's smile that can radiate so brightly =)

2008-04-24T06:15:00.003+08:00

yawn.. just had my medication and am going to sleep!!!

i hav to admit that clubbing isnt my thing at all -.- but i did had some fun, maybe its cuz its the fun group of friends mainly shawn, elene, hannah and sarah from the sub-comm family! =))

2008-04-21T01:23:00.035+08:00

hey all! i think tis is gonna be one hell of a long post..!
but before that..! heres a song that im really kind of emo-ing over now

anyway, school's supposed to start tmr. but im actually staying home. it really feels weird. i used to say how much i wanna quit sch or how much i wish that graduation day would just come immediately. and then all of a sudden im really unofficially a graduate. =\ am already missing everyone in tp already

came back from my sydney trip, headed for the foc/fow gathering at sentosa too!
and thinking about the trip, i was supposed to be back tmr from sydney. but i kind of pleaded my parents to get back earlier so i can attend the gathering. and they did. i felt really sorry that i couldnt stay longer.. but i know that it might be the last time seeing all the foc/fow ppl, and of course, one of my eye candy! so i just had to come back for one last look..

so ya, back to last sunday, was when i headed for sydney. it was damn cold there la. and seriously i regretted bringing the green jacket there. i could feel the wind blowing right in. =\ and i always hear about them closing shops at 5pm. and its damn true la, theres completely NTH to do after 5.30pm and i can like just sleep in the hotel at 7pm where its only about 5pm here in singapore. it gets real boring like theres no night life.

food there is like always about $10 per meal. even their chicken rice costs $8 -,- but i really enjoy the way they cook their chicken. be it steamed or fried or wadever. omg its just delicious. i can just eat them for the rest of my life. lol!SEE! its fried till its golden. and its like quite big oso. somemore i think those chicken are bred locally so its like damn fresh. omg omg omg x10000
speaking of which, see the shop behind me? here its known as breadtalk right? its BREADTOP for them! and im showing the 'tsk tsk' spastic face

we went to many places la, visited my bro's uni, the zoo, circular quay to see the sydney bridge and even saw the opera house, and more! theres even a beach thats linked to a... desert? O.o hahahah! i duno how to say la, but its a damn cool place. wind blows like theres no tomorrow and i got to ride on skate boards down the desert dunes! its damn fun!
here's the tour guide teaching us how to ride the board down the scary sand hills.
thats the victim he caught to demonstrate how its done!
for those friends who know that i nvr had balls to go to theme parks. at least i hav just enough to give tis a try xD
weeeee
and did i like mention getting back up was damn treacherous? see the gal beside me giving up already. tsk tsk
thats the beach which links to the little teeny weeny desert. and i love the bumpy car ride. it was damn fun.
heres a view from our hotel room. u can see the city from here!

well, did i mention that when i went to the reptile park, i get to go near koalas and kangaroos? :D
so, i was walking around n noticed a kangaroo. then he came hopping to me la. SO DAMN ADORABLE CAN. i so wanted to bring him home n keep it as a pet. but anyway, im guessing that he thinks i hav pop corns in my hand to feed him. then i quickly took a photo with him anyway. a little while later he noticed that i hav nothing to giv to him so he hopped away to join his other pals. lol! but it was damn cute.

then next is the koala. damn sad that we arent allowed to hug it. and when i visited it was about their most sleep-iest time. and his back was facing me and i couldnt get a photo. then the zoo keeper kind of said dont worry, i'll wake him up. then he went to shake him and stuff la. omg so adorable, it woke up and turned his face so i can get a better view with the cam. come to think of it, if someone wakes me up when im like sleeping i'd sure giv him a good bashing
as u guys know, my mum arent much of an english speaker. she couldnt pronounce koala so she just calls them coca-cola. ah hahahha. ok dun think its that funny =\
thats the kangaroo that tot i had fooood
was wonder if u guys know that kangaroo meant 'i don't know' in their native language. if i wasnt mistaken, it was a long time ago when ppl saw kangaroos and asked the locals wad animal are they. and they replied 'kangaroo' which means i duno, and so they tot that was their name! and thats the origin of the name of those cute little huggable fuzzy wezzies!

tis is hilarious. look at them! they are sun tanning! xD
i hav to comment that the lion they keep is like waaaaaaaaay bigger than the lions we hav here in singapore.
i thought the sign was kind of unnecessary? haha. who in the right mind would wanna swim in there

okayyy.. theres a hell lot more photos but call me lazy.. i just cant upload all of them =\ its too tedious!

anyway, heres a pic of us in UNSW. just coincidental that when we visited my bro's sch, they were having their graduation ceremony. took a peek and its like woah. i can saw alot of asians. hahah

the opera house!

thats the bridge! i heard u need to pay about $100 over dollars to get access to climb on top of it. bet the view would be magnificent
think my dad oso buay tahan me trying to act cute everytime i take a pic

well, u guys shld REALLY go to the west side of circular quay. theres this restaurant named the rocks or smth. or was it pancakes on the rocks. anyway. their pancakes are delicious!! i love this certain dish named devil's delight. their pancake is chocolate! and they hav chocolate sauce and ice cream n all. omg x 1000000
its kind of blurred.. but visit www.pancakesontherocks.com.au if ur interested!
that's devil's delight!
that's the ultimate! haha, are u like drolling?

yup, thats dinner!

so ya.. thats about all. im feeling really sleepy already. and saw the massive volume of photos that im just lazy to show u guys. but if u all bring me to sydney again i'd take u guys to eat at the rocks! woohoo!
probably wont get a chance to go overseas for the next 2 years until my Ns actually finishes. hahah

and i came back early from sydney too..! i fell sick right away.. parents and bro were still over there and i had to take care of myself.

i kept waking up and all. and at about 8am i couldnt sleep already. so i just got up and packed my luggages and stuff. and i took my time to get ready for the sentosa outing..! i remembered that i felt extremely light headed. but i just wanted to go see all of my peeps for the last time. ah haha! more importantly.. why hasnt anyone sent me the photos!!! and the video with me gaying with shawn. lool

like wow? we are the first ever couple in program!! damn we rock. HAHAH. wad a scandal
oh ya! heres the eye candy i've been referring to, serena!
seriously, i doubt i'd like ever see her again. ): anyway.. quit looking at my pimple!

okok, i just hope i'd be getting more pics! would probably upload them soon?
been praying hard that my internet doesnt crash. i havent blogged a post this long before. if it crashes i hav to do everything over again. haha! oh and during the flights that lasted like about 7hours per trip. i watched like a total of 5 movies. august rush, sky of love, golden compass, an artist's life, and juno. and i love august rush the most..! i almost cried. its really touching and u guys shld watch it!

2008-04-13T19:28:00.013+08:00

i guess i'd be off to the airport in less than 2 hours. and im wondering if i can make it back in time for the foc/fow outing. im still damn friggin sleepy even tho i woke up at 2.30pm today. came back from tp's orientation camp and it was insane. 6 days straight in sch, not as a gl but a programmer. frankly, i was pondering real hard if i wanna make my final year as a prog or a gl. it was kind of like elene and xiuhui's influence i decided to giv prog a try.

tho i really missed interacting with all the freshies, i seriously think that i learned way more than what i can from a gl. managing stress, little sleep, and i kind of improved the flow of my brain juices. think i've gotten even smarter being a programmer becuz every nite still hav to stay up to improvise the station games.

during the last day of foc, after announcing that phantos won, they had this annual thingy where graduates giv a speech n all la. i was REALLY positive i wouldnt cry. but then after brandon hugged me i suddenly just cried. ): then my ex-freshies and ex-gls came to me hugging me. then i realized that i really love all of them alot. 3 years in tp is really short. and even if i get to spend 100 years in tp with all of them, i doubt it is even enough.

dun think i hav much time to blog too much x( would be back soon with more photos! here and some:
this is the logistics room! damn messy, didnt even get to clean up after the carnival games yet. haha!
our sleeping room! every1's like damn tired waiting for debriefing to start xD
oh oh! we hav like an inbox for all sub-comms. its in the corridor area! :D
this is he corridor linking all sub comm's rooms together. damn cool! like in a hotel rite!
yuewen! our 'mummy' xD
here's the handsome gay partner of mine
and a more decent pic of him xD
adeline, ann hin and me!
gibson! my hunt-gry partner
lastly, zhi hui and mei li! :D

hopefully i'd be able to get more pics of the entire camp soon!
oh ya! and its like i rmbred that i took phanyx for hunt-gry. and then i noticed a certain gal for a long time since foc day 1. shes like totally my eye candy la! haha. damn sad im not a gl for phantos! xD alright, keeping things brief, i'd be back soon guys!

2008-04-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

2008-04-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

2008-04-07T00:11:00.005+08:00

HEY peeeeeps! i know i dun update often. but this time is like for real that i wouldnt be able to update anything for almost the next 2 and a half weeks.

firstly, is because i'd be helping out in my school's orientation camp! yup, this means school is starting soon! i know its bad news for some of you out there. (duh, not me of course) and i'd be in sch for the entire week for the workshop and the camp :D

then after that im going to Sydney for another week! not that im looking forward to it.. mum kind of forced me to go. =X oh well, this very much means that i wouldnt be doing any music practices for 2 weeks. the only thing im looking forward to is to take A380! and the delicious meals and the newest MOVIES on board. heheheh. please dun be jealoused =X

and im kind of like attempting to learn several songs when i come back from my trip. see if im capable of singing n playing the piano. would probably be uploading them on youtube..! if i can even sing that is. haha! bye guys, do check back again after 2 weeks!

2008-04-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

oooooooh my god im so in love with her. im moving to the US!!

2008-03-28T03:01:00.007+08:00

came back from tp's d&d and it was really kind of enjoyable. took tonnes of pictures but none of them are with me yet! would try to post them up soon? :D

and its random but..! i wanna walk the red carpet! be it for film festivals, concerts, or even award presentations! come to think of it, it doesnt really matter if someone is famous or not. at least he or she is doing something they love. and for me i'd really love to play in a pub or smth. when ppl's down and drinking i'd be the one singing; or when ppl's happy i'd be the one there performing to share their joy. xD

i just feel that for now i'd really wanna improve more in my music and probably study contempo for a degree overseas after my ns. but again, my mindset might change whilst in ns =\

anyway, here's a nice song ranking 11th on the chart this week! feels like tonight by daughtry
and yeah its just a fan video of Heroes dubbed with the song. but i always think that most of us wants to be like peter in the show. that we were meant to do something extraordinary.

2008-03-27T05:05:00.002+08:00

great, its 5am and im still awake. busy looking for a certain music from the trailer below since like 5 years ago. stumbled upon this trailer and it sure brings back memories!

cap ou pas cap? haha!
its really a lovely movie. i wonder where i put it. but the storyline is roughly about the couple that played this game of dare since young and even when they are older they are still playing it..! whoever holds the tin would dare the other and then pass it to him/her. well, like all love stories they eventually like each other. tsk tsk. haha!

and great..! i completely forgot that tmr would be TP's d&d at regent hotel =\ and i dont know wad to wear

2008-03-24T04:26:00.002+08:00

what's life without eye candies! =D i just stumbled across one on friendster. ok that was random..!

and yup, had a fun day with kokbeng, liang, miao and sin yee during sat. hahah. it was damn retarded. we shld meet up more often xD

tmr is singing session! and i wonder whats with tank lately. i didnt hear anything about him after his incident in china.

damn his voice is so damn good!

2008-03-18T15:21:00.002+08:00

finally! getting to blog again =\ im starting to find some free time now after this week :D
been having my music and wushu rehearsals and practices, snco concerts, wushu performances, music practical and theory exams, foc/fow preparations and italent video makings are all piling up the previous week. and im glad its over!

talking about snco concerts... i really love it! i was damn friggin nervous i swear i can just faint. it was my first time coping with so many commitments and i really enjoyed the moment when i was performing. nth could replace wad i felt back then. it was like ppl are happy when they hear us playing and i didnt make a single mistake! :D even tho i screwed up big time during rehearsals

and about wushu performances. as usual, crappy and fun. hahah!

next is my music practical and theory exams. my drums practical was abysmal. this is the first time im taking an exam without practicing at all. but im sure i can definitely pass. just that im doing really bad. i completely neglected practicing and the examiner was like "damn, your fill-ins are HORRIBLE". but im still amazed his remark was a "Good!" after i played my sight-reading piece.

and ya.. THOERY. i just kissed good-bye to my distinction. only realized my mistakes after leaving the hall. well.. at least i still hav my merit =\ damn. im like so pissed when i realized the german term "etwas lebhaft" is friggin 4marks -.-

2008-02-26T01:25:00.003+08:00

here's a group photo of the event at MOS! :)

i cant believe that out of the 9 days of study break, i only used 1 day to study for my exams. and today's paper was really scary. i wonder if im able to make it through =\

i'd be unofficially out of school in about 10hours time..! i have quite abit of time b4 going to NS to do and sort out things for myself.. =D

oh! and i came by this cool font and background and decided to see how it looked like with my name. and it turned out really cool. probably i can make it a brand of my own in the future? haha!

COOL RIGHT?!?! ok, im just over-reacting.. xD

2008-02-19T22:10:00.005+08:00

im totally beat today.. i wonder wads wrong with me lately.. i'd feel very lethargic easily

today was kind of like a meeting for the italent contest. damn, the ppl there are really awesome. funny, talented, cool, everything! it makes me pressurized..! had a couple of lectures which were really meaningful and all, but i just cant help feeling fatigue just half way through the day. im guessing its my biology clock. i hope tmr's gonna be fine :(

tmr's the media ground event at MOS.. so if any of u wanna come see the contestants, (or see me.. ^^), just drop me an sms asap, then i can send in ur names for free admittance to MOS! and i heard that after the event u get to stay on! =)) so its gonna start at about 8.30pm and then the party goes on till late at night n all la.

and thurs on i'd be mugging like hell for mon n tues' exam paper x( night all!

2008-02-14T00:22:00.006+08:00

HAPPY V'DAY TO YOU BASKETS THAT ARE ATTACHED!!!
ok im just jealoused =X jkjk

anyway...
am here just trying out my luck in this competition. and i submitted kind of like a crappy self-intro video with ultra bad sound quality and resolution. i'm actually just wanting to experience something new and probably get another breakthrough in myself before going to the army..

Here's where you can vote:
http://www.italentstar.com/index.php

if im not wrong, voting would start after 7pm later. do giv me a vote daily..! =D really really appreciate it

oh..! and heres a profile i was given by the organisers! :)
http://profiles.friendster.com/italentsgm01

come visit me daily okay..! haha =X

2008-02-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

finally! im done with all my projects and its time to enjoy! =X counting my days before im enlisted to the army. im only left with 2 exam papers before i graduate in may. im pondering with many many things that i can do while i wait for the enlistment letter. and all i can think of is just having fun, learn new stuff, and hang out with pals. =DD

after so long, i finally plucked the courage to watch hey gorgeous in tp. its damn embarrassing to see myself on tv. i'd keep noticing the stupid actions i did and even wondered why i'd even do those retarded looking gestures. -.- but i noticed during the talent part, many ppl were really there to support me, swaying along while i was playing and etc. im really touched T^T its like i couldnt notice it cuz i was too nervous on the stage. but as i watched the video i realized how much i hav neglected all of you. damn i love u guys!! (:

2008-02-08T01:20:00.001+08:00

thanks raaz and bert..! i duno how but u 2 did cheer me up =p

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see.

2008-02-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

i've concluded that this is the worst year ever
i'm totally mortified by how bad this cny can get
i wonder if things could get any worse
i really hav friends that love to lie to me
thanks for letting me know how naive i am to even believe you people
thanks for letting me know how dumb and worthless i am

2008-02-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

come to think of it, the first day of chinese new year is always the most boring one. i'd be stucked at home doing nothing becuz all my relatives are overseas. -.- i can only be doing visiting tmr ownwards =( none of my msn cliques are online cuz they are all outside aggressively collecting ang paos..!

anyway, i hate this year's chinese new year. as the saying goes promises are meant to be broken. u cant believe how much i agree with this line right now. i bet u probably dont even remember

2008-02-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

what a lonely birthday -.-

music lesson from morning to night, along with some new year shopping.. all by myself T^T

its like all my friends are busy with their own stuff and coincidentally i have no school today. ended up all alone during my 20th b'day

but anyway, thanks to everyone that wished me happy b'day..! its really hard to reply every single person but i tried my best. haha! =))

1 month and 9 more days to theory exam
1 month to drums exam
23 more days to freedom from tp! =D

2008-02-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

PROJ PROJ PROJ

i'd be having my last presentation in tp in just less than 12 hours. then we'd all be left with one last assignment till our final year exams

its been a happy week for me, despite all the rushing of projects xD reasons being that i got a drumset role to perform during march, had fun during band practices and project meetings, getting my first 2 ang baos, and even finding some1 who actually liked this really really old movie like i do. xD

lastly, is the fact that i'd be 20 on tuesday =)) duno if i shld be happy or sad. it just meant that i've never dated any1 for 20 years on valentine's day! guess i'd be out with my usual gangs again.. probably minus a few ppl who are attached -.- or maybe i shld just stay at home

雨不停落下来
花怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀

爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间永远都夹著空白
缺了一块就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管只要你能愉快

心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管只要你能愉快

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管只要你能愉快

只要你能愉快

2008-01-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

okay i cant help but blog about tis.. liang and i sure hav alot of chemistry. bluffing through our teeth when we havent communicated to one another wad to do. xD

well it started off when i decided to pull a prank off:
evan. says:
guess i should be going to musician's institute in LA
Bert says:
lol, good for you
evan. says:
and yup.. probably wont see u guys anymore
evan. says:
cuz im somewhat migrating
evan. says:
to avoid ns
Bert says:
well, cool, msn then
evan. says:
i guess so
evan. says:
i will miss u
Bert says:
me too
Bert says:
haha

and when i thought the prank wasnt working... meanwhile...

Bert says:
eh, pin wen migrating?
Bert says:
talk cok right
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
oh..
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
so u know about it alr ah..
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
ya.
Bert says:
lol, serious shit?
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
ya..
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
so how?
Bert says:
sure bo
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
yar
Bert says:
wtf

and liang msn-ed me:

gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
fuker where u migrating tell me
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
then i can bluff bert
evan. says:
HAHAHAHHA
evan. says:
los angelas
evan. says:
OMG
evan. says:
he calling me
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
HAHAHAHA!

and then on the phone...

bert:
wtf, escaping ns? you got to be kidding
evan:
yea... (in an extremely melancholy tone trying not to laugh)
bert:
*talking to his mum* pinwen's going overseas
evan:
OMG. you TOLD YOUR MUM?? i was just pulling ur leg all along! HEY YOU LISTENING?!

lol.. okay.
bullying issue aside.. im really glad we're buddies. haha! =)) looking back, we've known each other way before we were in wushu since primary 6. and im still glad i met u guys.. still rmbr all the retarded things we did, all the performances we did and even the competitions we pulled through them all.. and its like damn fast. i'd be graduating in a few weeks time.. and then i'd be in NS.. then i'd be out soon to start chasing after ambitions that i arent even sure where i'll wind up in the end. but all in all. i know u guys would be there. haha! bert i still love to bully u!

and yup.. this is how it ended!

Bert says:
thought so zhun you all lie
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
so funny~
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
cos u asked me i sure know pinwen toking shit
gley- ガゼット -紅蓮- says:
hahahaha
Bert says:
ccb

annnnd

Bert says:
lol, fark you bitch
evan. says:
HAHAHH
Bert says:
ass clown

2008-01-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

its raining..
and im wondering
if things would be different
if we had met in another way
if things would be different
if i didnt ask you to stay

Endless Story
If you haven't changed your mind
I want you to be with me tonight
I'm tired of pretending to be strong
We were too young
Every time I think about you baby
I can see it now, I miss you
It's so hard to say I'm sorry

I want to sing this song for you
Not for just anybody
The never ending story will continue on in this radiance
I always want to tell of it, forever

Memories of our time together
Don't disappear like this, don't go away
They're starting to warmly melt, so I'm going to make sure
A drop of gentleness spreads down on my chest
I'm missin' you so much that it hurts
Don't let go of your hand that's atop mine

If my wish were to come true, I'd want to sing
This song for you one more time
The never ending story, with incessant love
Tell me why, tell me, forever

I want to sing this song for you
Not for just anybody
The never ending story will continue on in this radiance
I always want to tell of it, forever

2008-01-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

performance at chinatown today, and saw this 2 really cute dogs x) if only i get to keep pets at home..!
but anyway im damn slpy now and i cant study at all. guess i'll just go to slp...

2008-01-27T00:30:00.001+08:00

damn tired.. slept for only like 4hours and woke up real early for the entrepreneurship talk in the convention centre -.- hav yet to recover from muscle aches from the fitness test.

headed down to city hall with my usual cliques x) after that went for my first band practice! :D

i hav never done anything like this b4. -.- and kind of played the bass and snare drums, the xylophone and the triangle thingy! had a hard time trying to read the damn score. oh well, at least it still worked out fine thanks to audrey. heh heh! but the practice venue really damn far away from home =(

if i arent wrong there seems to be a performance during march!

2008-01-26T02:17:00.001+08:00

oh yay. i got a silver! =))
need to wake up real early for some entrepreneur talk in sch at 9am =.= and having test on mon n tues!

this is 1 of my exam piece for drums. kind of wtf la. HAHA

2008-01-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

physical fitness test is about 14hours away.. i have to get a silver or i'd be deprived 2 months of freedom =\

some PROJECT discussion we juz had:

lone star says:
sch sucks
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
life sucks
vanessa (: says:
ai school and life both sucks la
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
YA
vanessa (: says:
lets all go die
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
hav to reproduce first
vanessa (: says:
eeee
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
LOL LOL
lone star says:
LOL
lone star says:
sounds like rabbits
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
HAHAHAH
*silence...*
.:Kiwi:. i wan a drumset =( says:
lets talk about handsome boys/pretty girls

(No) Happy Ending
yet another brilliant song that i'd wish i had written it. i thought it describes really very appropriately how usually ppl would feel when its a one sided love.
and have been wonderin why the title is happy ending =\ probably becuz its a happy ending when its not a happy ending? haha! dun think im making much sense but experienced friends of mine shld understand xD

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love...

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2008-01-23T01:58:00.000+08:00

yes im pretty sure this is one retarded film i wanna watch xD

Jerry: (singing) When you're walkin' down the street... and you see a little ghost... whatcha gonna do about (out of tune) Ghostbusterrrs~
Mike: What? What is that?
Jerry: That's the Ghostbusters theme song.
Mike: No.
Jerry: I'm pretty sure it is.

LOL

well anyway, promised to build jasmine's reputation up. maybe she can treat me to a nice meal and i can blog about how nice she is! wouldnt that work better and more efficient? =X haha!
and thnks for the pieces! i really love concerto d'amour the most!

damn slpy.. off to slp! x(

2008-01-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

im so slpy.. gonna wake up later at 7am to finish up all my work

2008-01-21T03:18:00.000+08:00

kind of troubled today. bugged by many issues and cant help feeling insecured.
just managed to finish up tmr's portion of sch assignments. have to wake up early to get to sch to print it out =(

havnt touched my music lately.. im so screwed coming tues n wed -.- and my drums exams is just around the corner, i hav yet to even finish my exam pieces!

well, some gal who always get dc-ed made my day though. u guys probably will think im lame but it was damn funny to me lah xD

jasmine. × says:
HELLO!
jasmine. × says:
i will sue singtel if i dc
jasmine. × says:
i'm right next to the modem
jasmine. × says:
:x
*jasmine. × appears to be offline. Messages you send will be delivered when they sign in.*

ok.. maybe its my crooked sense of humor but it was damn funny when i tried to reply her

Kiwi says:
sore throat still wan eat pandan bread
jasmine. × says:
omg
jasmine. × says:
sore throat cannot eat panda?
jasmine. × says:
I MEAN
jasmine. × says:
PANDAN!!!
Kiwi says:
HAHAHAH
jasmine. × says:
AHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-01-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

oh man! i really wanna join a band! =\

but anyway today's performance was rather good? i duno. but from the feedback its really really impressive. =D we did it! but it looks like we wont be able to relax yet, more upcoming performances for chinese new year .___.

and ya..! im really surprised when i realized one of my sec sch classmate is getting married today O.o (jan 19th to be exact) so omg la. i'd nvr expect anything that soon..! =)) but still, congrats!

i shld get home asap tmr. need to start working on my projects diligently. and finish up all my project assignments and tutorials tmr. havent done my part yet! im really screwed.

u guys shld know tis song by avril. but this type its a cover by an unknown guy!

2008-01-19T11:42:00.001+08:00

anyone out there if u hav the time, u hav to watch this video

i seriously cried at the last scene and also when the mum was taking a photo for he and his galfriend. i really feel that my mum and dad havent been living thier life to the fullest becuz of me n my bro. we're always making them worry. and i always get pissed off easily whenever my mum starts nagging. she wouldnt nag if she doesnt care...

Message from Voicemachine:
Hi Justin! This is your mother. It is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya and take care honey. I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you x3

2008-01-18T02:10:00.000+08:00

okay -.- how am i supposed to reach chinatown for rehearsal within 30min after my class test at 7.30pm. thats like peak hour period. omg omg omg

anyway, i realized how i hav omitted even the slightest things during my poly sch days.
was heading out for training and happened to gaze up. and realized that i've nvr done it for almost 2 years. usually would love to look up and see how awesome the clouds and the sky look. but i guess im too busy to even do something which wouldnt take up even a second. guess im starting to grow old!

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2008-01-17T02:31:00.000+08:00

woow..! i think their dances are damn cool. its like they are gliding..! the song isnt that bad either

its about time i start focusing on sch projs and tests now..!
but that can wait till tmr.. haha! really sleepy now.. and class is 9am! -.- good nites!

2008-01-16T06:05:00.000+08:00

slept really early last night. thought there wasnt anything to do anyway. i noticed that i dun really know most of my friends or msn mates anymore. to make it worse i dun even recognize some email contacts. still rmbr how i usually chat all night long during my sec sch days and 1st poly year. maybe they are all in the past now

ok, off to work now. about 5 more weeks to end of my final semester

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...

2008-01-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

gilbert u made my day
haha. u r damn fukin retarded =))

andante in b flat... im so screwed tmr -____-

i shld really take things as it come.. no one knows what the future holds

Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And i don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain