Read a fewold posts. Damn, I'm like wtf I sound like some childish despo freako. Although the fact that you have a huge impact in my life never changed, I'm so glad the torture's over. Good luck to the guy beside you,
I'm moving on: cusitsyouandme.tumblr.com Goodbye, it's been a nice 5 years (:
I just thought that I seriously have learned alot the past year. I can't believe I actually could forgive someone like you. Seeing you still oblivious of what you really want in your life, i pity you. You don't know what love really is, you take people's feelings for granted. I duno when you'll even begin to perceive this, but I still do hope you're happy regardless of what happens. It was pretty coincidental to see you there. Helping a certain somebody with his hairdo. That very moment I saw you smiling, it just made me wonder if you are really happy, or you are just fabricating the fact that you are. But what the heck, time will tell. I just know that you'll be showing me your answers really soon.
Friday, February 12, 201023:48
great. i did super badly today :\ i totally suck! tho i still think they are really awesome :D perhaps i'm just not good enough. damn, i feel really dizzy now i better go catch some Zs. shouldn't have stayed up late ystd -.-
Tuesday, January 19, 201021:12
This is for you, Cherie. hope you're happy with that new guy of yours.
A little too lazy to type in chinese now.. Finally it's really over. I have never lied, believe it or not. I have no idea what you were referring to when you said I was being cunning/iniquitous. And thanks for letting me scold you, it;'s like after so long, all my anger just vanished. It's like I've been waiting for this day. Thanks for taking it in. (:
We'll see what really happens to each of us, I duno if you even read my very last text, but, enjoy your happiness while it lasts.. Both of us won't be leading a good life. We've done too much to deserve none. For me, it's bad enough of me to be in between you and Daniel, but I really am willing to take whatever karma has in stall for me.
For you, I duno how many guys have you been doing this with, and I really hope you'd stop. This isn't something to joke with, you'll regret it in the future. Think about the guys that you are doing this too
You were never a waste of time, probably just a harsh realization that I could have done so much better. There's so many things I wish for, but most of all, I wish you were here. It’s strange because before I started seeing you, I couldn’t even recall the last time that I cried. Now, tears just come easily. But come to think of it, it's you that makes my sorrows worthwhile. Throughout these harsh weeks at work, my thoughts of you are sometimes the only things that keeps me going. If only you'll just talk to me again. Like how we used to do so every night.
Sunday, October 11, 200900:16
I so much want to hear you say that there isn't anyone you'll wanna be with, and that you'll rather be alone than without me.
Thursday, October 08, 200922:50
I tried so hard. Probably too hard... You know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine just to get your attention and apparently I overdid it. I know you probably dislike me now, and I know I'm in the wrong. Is it too late for me to amend any of it? Like what my friends said, perhaps I'm immature, and although it's good that I did show concern, it backfired. And now they hope that I could move on. But trust me, there are some feelings that won't ever go away. And maybe that made me crazy, but I guess we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who will never let go. Someone who wants to cherish you forever. Someone who never wants to lose sight of you. Now here I am, trying my best to move on, grow up, and just to forget everything. Every piece of you, the way you smell, the feel of your skin. I can still feel it like it was just moments ago. And I think I always will.
I don't care about what people tell me. I just want to scream to the entire office that I’m still in love with you.
Saturday, October 03, 200913:20
I want to be hard for you to forget. I want to have that kind of impact on you where you know you’ll never find anyone who can take my place, and I want that because that’s what you are to me. I want it to hurt like hell when you see me. I want you to feel what you put me through.
Just a curious question, If i died tonight.. How many people would know? How many people would moan and wish they had me back? How many people would regret being assholes? How many people would wish they loved me more? Would you wish that you've loved me less?
Friday, October 02, 200904:27
Do you know the most surprising thing about heartaches? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I've lost my feelings for you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.
Thursday, October 01, 200920:27
This feeling has never stopped. I’ve always had a thing for you. It fades in and out but never goes away. I’ve always thought it would all fall into place at the right time. I don’t understand you. Yet, being with you just makes sense to me. Happy B'day
Wednesday, September 30, 200921:15
I miss how it was natural to hold your hand. How we could feel each other smiling between kisses. How even when I asked for space, you knew enough to never leave. Now that you’re gone, I seem to have more space than I know what to do with. Guess it’s safe to say I miss you.
Tuesday, September 29, 200918:39
I used to say that staring into your eyes felt like home, but you were like no home I had ever known. You were soft and lovely, and you always kept me warm. I miss having that someone to wrap my arms around who'd whisper sweet melodies in my ear.
Sunday, September 27, 200903:27
I think the hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us knows what’s going on. Neither of us know what the other is thinking. And we are both trying to make decisions on information we don’t know
Saturday, September 26, 200901:33
I just want to get inside your head, so I can see how you feel about me. It’s all I wonder about lately. All I want to know is what you see.